Julie and Julia

Survivor

No plans tonight. Actually, I do have plans. To watch Survivor. After that I might watch a movie or read a book. I will most likely play a few games of reversi on my mac before deciding on my final amusement of the night. Reversi, also called Othello, for those who don't know, is a game.......... just like Survivor.


Jerri "Man-Eater" Manthey

Some nights I don't want to end. This is one of those nights.

Barry's sisters beg him to come to a family dinner. "You better be there. Don't just sit at home"

Why does my family get mad when I don't go to their parties? No one talks to me. We have nothing in common that I want to talk about. I just sit there or walk back n forth between rooms looking like I'm doing something until someone asks me how school is going. I wish I had someone to talk to. Another outkast like myself. Someone who depends on me being there because they're in the same boat as me. That would be nice. Something you would see in a movie. We go off somewhere, outside maybe and talk about real things. Real things to us. Not things that are time fillers. A girl preferably. I get along with girls better and find them more interesting. They're easier to talk to and enjoy people watching. The good ones at least. We would make fun of everyone there. In a friendly way. She would be exciting. She would love movies and love them as much as I do. We would drink all night.



"A toast to my big brother George: The richest man in town. "

It's tough not to write about yourself.


"It takes a lot of effort to make something look effortless."

I'm sleeping on my bedroom floor tonight. Miserable, frustrated, lonely. Things will get worse. They'll get better then they'll get worse then they'll get better then they'll get worse. I know that this is not the worst moment of my life. That has happened yet. One day I'll have the worst moment of my life and I'll wish I was back on my bedroom floor. Lonely. That's a depressing thought.


Merry Christmas!

This morning in my Intro. to English Studies class, several students stood up in front of the class and shared their "temptation" poems. I was not one of these students because I didn't do the assignment (I rarely do). Instead I watched "Casablanca", which isn't a decision I regret, but it's one that I feel I make too often: rather than doing homework, I choose to watch a movie. One could argue that since I want to work in movies one day that I'm really not making a bad decision. Will that one viewing of "Casablanca" positively affect how my goals and aspirations materialize (if they do at all)? Also, I love watching movies more than anything else so why not do that? I'll tell me why. I'm paying $4,000 to go to school. Do the work, get the credits then get out. Get it over with.

Priorities:

1. School
2. Movies
3. Writing
4. Leisure reading
5. Black Jack